First Holiday event we went to was Space Coast Basket Brigade.  It was amazing!  The organization from the front end was a little crazy, but once we picked up our baskets, put them in the vans, and went to the homes and delivered Thanksgiving dinner it was so much fun.  It was a great event to do with our Glass Doctor family.  There were around 1,700 baskets delivered up and down the Space Coast this day.

I know lately it looks like we work at Glass Doctor, school, judge cheerleading or work on the house ALL the time.  I wanted to show you, we do take time to play a bit, and give you an opportunity to see how cute Chaco is. 

This room is a true project. At this point we are just making it an entry but our long term goal is to cut out the three big windows and make that the front door.

I am behind on posts. The whole remodeling a house, getting a puppy, and life have my plate a little full. Sorry. Every year we carve pumpkins, eat pumpkin chili and see who has the best pumpkin. This year we decided to have it at the shop since the house is not really ready for company and it was supposed to rain the night we were carving.

When I look at the starting pictures of this house the first thing I do is smell the horrible cat/dog pee smell that encrusted the house!

I was going to wait till we finished to start updating, but it is taking longer than expected (which has anyone ever done a remodel that doesn't) So I will start sharing updates. Hopefully when I finish with the updates we will have a room to actually show. Our favorite show in Australia was The Block. All the constestents get a dump of a building that has tons of potential and then each week they compete to complete an area. The first show in the week is showing their work and the second show of the week is the reveal So.....here is the first show for the living room :) Enjoy!

WOW!  All the people who reached out to us last week.  Thank you so much.  We for sure felt and are feeling the love.  One of the things that just kept coming up throughout the week was the amount of people who were secretly going through the same thing, but not telling anyone.  I can not tell you how many private messages I got and still getting telling me they had just lost their baby, they were in the same boat, or they had been there, but so many were followed up with how brave we were laying it all out there, wished they could tell people,  or they wished they wouldn't have gone through it alone.  I had school in-service the week before, and this video kept ringing in my head as I read all the messages. 

How would we treat people differently if we really knew what was going on?  I know there are so many friends and family going through things, but are not as much of an open book as I am.  It is easy to love on people who share everything, but please pray for all those friends who are suffering silently and not ready to share their news.  

With everything going on, I have not had time to write about our one year anniversary of Glass Doctor. I am so happy we started this venture. On hand I can say it feels like we have been working at Glass Doctor for years, while on the other hand it feels like we are still brand new. We did not have a ribbon cutting when we opened because if you will remember, we had Hurricane Matthew two weeks after we did a "soft opening." After Matthew no one had time to come and have a ribbon cutting. We decided to have a one year anniversary ribbon cutting.

We had around fifty people come, since we had it on a Saturday I am not sure if that hurt or helped our numbers. We had it on a Saturday so I would be able to attend. There are group pictures of everyone but we have yet to receive them from the Chamber.

I can not believe how much Glass Doctor has grown in the last year. Opening a business is a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. It takes more hours than I ever dreamed it would take, but I am so glad we have done it together. Yes there have been times we wanted to just scream at each other while others times we are so happy with progress, but I would for sure say opening a business can strengthen any relationship. I am so happy we have built this and I can’t wait to see what the future holds.

Since October is awareness month, I thought I would share this October with you. Right after Irma we found out I was pregnant. I know, do the math, that would put me at about ten weeks pregnant. Don't feel surprised I didn't tell you, I didn't even tell my mom. Sorry Mamma!

Above is when I told Josh.  I had a photographer take pictures of us on the beach, for an ad for Glass Doctor to help show we were locals (or least thats what I told Josh) during the secession she asked me how big is it? I bent down and grabbed some sand and showed him the sand, and said, "our baby is about this big, you are FINALLY going to be a Daddy."

The Dr. was so calm! Already knowing that one in four pregnancies end in miscarriage and the fact my mom had one before me, I knew this was always a possiblity. He explained to me that it could just be that my dates are wrong, our baby could have just stopped growing, or I could be experieniencing a miscarrage. He told me to get blood work and we would get a plan of action. Of course I left the Dr. office to late to get blood work that night, so the next day I went and got blood work done. I also got blood work two other times to measure HCG levels. Mine did just what they would for a miscarriage decrease over the three tests.

​The one thing that the Dr. said that just really sticks in my head though is, "God just wanted to hold on to your baby in heaven. He thought their life would be better there than here." Wow go back to the verses I had read before I walked back to talk with the Dr. I think the Dr. was so surprised how calm and just matter of the fact I was, as he left he assured me if I left and had any questions to call him anytime he was here for me and did not want me to feel lost with questions.

So for now, that is all the weeks we get to know this baby.  That is the only time we really get to be with them.  We hope and pray that was not our only shot at being parents but know that His plan is always better than our plan.  I am writing this because most of my readers have been with us through some hard times in our life, but also to explain it once.  I started this blog to give a real snap shot into our life, not a fake facade put on just for the blog.  This is us right now.  

​I am usually a pretty open person, but at this point I really just do not want to talk about this to anyone.  I want you to know what is going on, know that we are are OK, and that we are trusting His plan.  I hope one day I will be ready to talk, but until then, I am really trying to avoid face to face converstaion or over the phone converstaion about this.  I know I am avoiding, but that is how I am coping.  Don't feel like you can't text, message or other things.  Thank you for your prayers, love, concerns, and encouragement.  We love yall!